The separation is still fresh, and I have not received much emotional support. I feel misunderstood and completely alone on this journey. I am not heartbroken or devastated because I understand the assignment. What I truly feel is anger, anger at what I endured and how long I endured it. My time was stolen, caught in a web of lies, manipulation, and baneful magic. I was trapped in a loop of toxicity disguised as love, support, and loyalty.
I walked away from more than just a marriage. I have been stripped of nearly everything that once brought me comfort.
I am grateful I made it out with my life and sanity, but if you understand narcissistic abuse and energetic vampirism, you understand that even when you escape, parts of you can still feel stolen.
When you speak about narcissistic abuse, spiritual warfare, and witchcraft, most people shut down. They do not have the capacity or knowledge to meet you where you are. Even therapists often take a strictly clinical or scientific approach.
Therapy and medication may be essential to truly heal from this, as many spiritual attacks can show up as physical or mental symptoms. But as a spiritualist, healing has become a sacred path between me and God. My relationship with God, and my understanding of the battle between consciousness and the malevolence hidden in the shadows, has shifted my tolerance and acceptance of my journey.
Looking at my trials and tribulations through a spiritual lens, I understand that my abusers may not perceive things at the same level of awareness. They are likely still operating from a third dimensional perspective, driven by ego, jealousy, insecurity, pride, and envy. They may not realize their actions are influenced by what I understand as lower vibrational or shadow driven forces. At the same time, my human emotions are still trying to catch up to what I already know in the 5D. The spells and illusions are wearing off, and I am beginning to see things more clearly.
They can no longer subject me to the same patterns of abuse fueled by their need to control and feel powerful.
We all play roles in each other’s lives, each of us a catalyst for change. Yes, the human experience brings pain and discomfort, but I now see the bigger picture and the deeper purpose behind it all. I have shifted from victimhood into spiritual awareness. I am choosing to move forward with a transformed mind, a clearer sense of self, and a deeper and stronger connection and commitment to the Most High and the path set before me.
This journey has deepened my faith and sharpened my discernment. I recognize the limitations of others and no longer internalize their actions, because I understand they are operating from a different level of awareness. What once broke me has now awakened me, and I walk forward with clarity, strength, and divine purpose.
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